Friday, March 14, 2014

How I became a SAHM

Never in my life would I imagined myself being a stay at home mom (SAHM), like ever. Even my mom (is still) constantly laughing at me for being able to carry out the "job" as one. If it would be such a shocking statement to my mom, would you be able to predict what my friends & colleagues would have thought about it?

I used to be a workaholic, I could spent 48 hours straight at work & had zero complaints about it. I was sleep deprived of course, but I enjoyed my work life, enjoy being stressed out (err, not really), enjoy the close relationship I have with colleagues, enjoy all the crazy night out due to my work nature, and the list goes on.

Hubby & I used to have a very flexible life (well, every parents do). We would laze around the bed during the days that we didn't have to work, enjoy some beautiful brunch at a beautiful diner, had some quiet talks, & enjoyed the peaceful scenery around us. Well, magically,  1 pregnancy stick can just changed everything in seconds.

I still remember that day when I found out I was pregnant. The decision to test on a pregnancy kit was totally unintentional. I was just thinking that I was fat & since I had a pregnancy kit at home, let's test for fun.

Yeah, it was what I thought. & little did I know that it was actually a sweet surprise. We were thrilled & I barely believed what I seen on the pregnancy kit, a 2 lines pregnancy kit which told me that I was pregnant.

3 home pregnancy kits that "assured" me that I was indeed pregnant

The very next day, I went to the pharmacy to buy 2 more pregnancy kits & re tested. Yes, I was still in denial as this was too good to be true. Well, we weren't trying to conceive at that point of time, not yet, we had a Europe trip that was planned 6 months ago coming up, & we would only try to conceive after the trip.

So, back to the pregnancy kits. Yes, I was pregnant. It took 3 different pregnancy kits for me to actually believe that I was pregnant. Ooh ya! Immediately we scheduled for an appointment with the gynae & got our pregnancy "confirmed".

Hello baby! Mummy & papa were so thrilled to find out about you. I was teary when I first heard your heartbeat through the ultrasound.

We were over the moon, of course, it's a blessing from God. We went on our Europe trip as planned however due to the crazy pregnancy hormone the trips weren't exactly as pleasure as I was expecting. I vomited right after every meal, my tummy just couldn't digest my favorite western food! All I wanted was Chinese food, in the Europe countries!!! I wasn't a rice lover, I guess my little baby inside was, & indeed, it is. 

Here are some of the pictures of our Europe trip. I was all smiley for the pictures (of course there were tons of horrible ones which my face just looked dead pale, those were screened through).

Amesterdam

Barcelona

Venice

London

Geneva

Berlin

Sheffield

My pregnancy wasn't considered smooth sailing. I had morning sickness (wasn't exactly a very horrible ones compared to others') for the first 20 weeks. It stopped at week 20, however I was then accompanied by bad skin allergy from week 21 onwards. The itch didn't go away until I was 6 months postpartum. Yes, 6 months.

At time I would scratch til I bleed & cried miserably

I didn't have a pregnancy photoshoot then, it just didn't cross my mind that I should have one, but I did some self shooting using my digital camera's self timer, & did a little poor editing (with all that skills I have) to serve me as some of my precious preggie memories.

7 months pregger

8 months pregger

33 weeks pregger

34 weeks pregger

37 weeks pregger

38 weeks pregger

I also did a little runaway show for Maternity Wearhouz at the 2nd Motherhood Expo 2011 @ Mid Valley Exhibition Centre


Anyway, fast forward to after the delivery of my little boy. I had a 2 months maternity leave, & on top of that I applied for another month off, so I could spend more time with my new love.

Reported to the world at exactly 39 weeks

New mummy with her precious little one

I had a confinement lady who helped me out during the 1st month, & by 2nd month onwards I was all alone. Ya. A new mummy with a new baby, what do you expect?


Time flies. Little baby is 1 month old

Well, I wasn't actually doing so bad, I was doing quite good actually. I stayed in piece, it didn't matter if we have a messy house, eating only outside food, unable to stay clean as I had to stay next to my baby at all time or he would freaked out (by that I mean he would cry on top of his lung), but I have my baby well taken care of, he's well fed, well loved, he has a mummy that was always around him, talked to him, played with him, loved him.

The date of returning to work was getting closer. There wasn't a single day that I didn't struggle & felt sad that I had to leave my baby under someone else's care soon.

On my 1st day of work, I dropped the baby off the babysitter & off my way to work. Could you guess what I did in the car? I was crying like a little baby. I missed him so much. I wanted to hug & kiss him so so much. That moment, I knew what I wanted to be, I wanted to be a SAHM, so i can spend all my time with my precious little one.

And voila, I became a SAHM few months later. Phew! Life wasn't easy in the beginning, it took me a while to get adjusted into the life of a SAHM, who's on duty 24/7, who has no pay/bonus, no annual leaves/ MC, didn't even have time for a proper meals, who's constantly look like a maid & so many others underprivileged stuffs that I can go on talking for hours, especially since I have a high need baby that was literally glued to me, like, all the time.

So, what do I get in return? I have a happy baby. I get to see him falls, see him crawl, witnessed all the 1st all by myself, I could stay by his side, to watch him grow, to witness his every milestones, to laugh & cry together, to do so much more things together. Really, nothing else matters, whatever that makes him happy, makes me happy, it's that simple.

Often needed to be hugged to sleep, no, I wasn't spoiling him, I was telling him that mummy will always be here for him.

All those sleepless nights just for the baby

Sometimes I just like to watch him in his sleep, & smell that nice scents that only a baby has.

So high need I decided that babywear him would be easier for me to do some simple chores.

Nerdy mummy & son

My source of happiness. Mummy loves you.


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Friday, March 14, 2014

How I became a SAHM

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Never in my life would I imagined myself being a stay at home mom (SAHM), like ever. Even my mom (is still) constantly laughing at me for being able to carry out the "job" as one. If it would be such a shocking statement to my mom, would you be able to predict what my friends & colleagues would have thought about it?

I used to be a workaholic, I could spent 48 hours straight at work & had zero complaints about it. I was sleep deprived of course, but I enjoyed my work life, enjoy being stressed out (err, not really), enjoy the close relationship I have with colleagues, enjoy all the crazy night out due to my work nature, and the list goes on.

Hubby & I used to have a very flexible life (well, every parents do). We would laze around the bed during the days that we didn't have to work, enjoy some beautiful brunch at a beautiful diner, had some quiet talks, & enjoyed the peaceful scenery around us. Well, magically,  1 pregnancy stick can just changed everything in seconds.

I still remember that day when I found out I was pregnant. The decision to test on a pregnancy kit was totally unintentional. I was just thinking that I was fat & since I had a pregnancy kit at home, let's test for fun.

Yeah, it was what I thought. & little did I know that it was actually a sweet surprise. We were thrilled & I barely believed what I seen on the pregnancy kit, a 2 lines pregnancy kit which told me that I was pregnant.

3 home pregnancy kits that "assured" me that I was indeed pregnant

The very next day, I went to the pharmacy to buy 2 more pregnancy kits & re tested. Yes, I was still in denial as this was too good to be true. Well, we weren't trying to conceive at that point of time, not yet, we had a Europe trip that was planned 6 months ago coming up, & we would only try to conceive after the trip.

So, back to the pregnancy kits. Yes, I was pregnant. It took 3 different pregnancy kits for me to actually believe that I was pregnant. Ooh ya! Immediately we scheduled for an appointment with the gynae & got our pregnancy "confirmed".

Hello baby! Mummy & papa were so thrilled to find out about you. I was teary when I first heard your heartbeat through the ultrasound.

We were over the moon, of course, it's a blessing from God. We went on our Europe trip as planned however due to the crazy pregnancy hormone the trips weren't exactly as pleasure as I was expecting. I vomited right after every meal, my tummy just couldn't digest my favorite western food! All I wanted was Chinese food, in the Europe countries!!! I wasn't a rice lover, I guess my little baby inside was, & indeed, it is. 

Here are some of the pictures of our Europe trip. I was all smiley for the pictures (of course there were tons of horrible ones which my face just looked dead pale, those were screened through).

Amesterdam

Barcelona

Venice

London

Geneva

Berlin

Sheffield

My pregnancy wasn't considered smooth sailing. I had morning sickness (wasn't exactly a very horrible ones compared to others') for the first 20 weeks. It stopped at week 20, however I was then accompanied by bad skin allergy from week 21 onwards. The itch didn't go away until I was 6 months postpartum. Yes, 6 months.

At time I would scratch til I bleed & cried miserably

I didn't have a pregnancy photoshoot then, it just didn't cross my mind that I should have one, but I did some self shooting using my digital camera's self timer, & did a little poor editing (with all that skills I have) to serve me as some of my precious preggie memories.

7 months pregger

8 months pregger

33 weeks pregger

34 weeks pregger

37 weeks pregger

38 weeks pregger

I also did a little runaway show for Maternity Wearhouz at the 2nd Motherhood Expo 2011 @ Mid Valley Exhibition Centre


Anyway, fast forward to after the delivery of my little boy. I had a 2 months maternity leave, & on top of that I applied for another month off, so I could spend more time with my new love.

Reported to the world at exactly 39 weeks

New mummy with her precious little one

I had a confinement lady who helped me out during the 1st month, & by 2nd month onwards I was all alone. Ya. A new mummy with a new baby, what do you expect?


Time flies. Little baby is 1 month old

Well, I wasn't actually doing so bad, I was doing quite good actually. I stayed in piece, it didn't matter if we have a messy house, eating only outside food, unable to stay clean as I had to stay next to my baby at all time or he would freaked out (by that I mean he would cry on top of his lung), but I have my baby well taken care of, he's well fed, well loved, he has a mummy that was always around him, talked to him, played with him, loved him.

The date of returning to work was getting closer. There wasn't a single day that I didn't struggle & felt sad that I had to leave my baby under someone else's care soon.

On my 1st day of work, I dropped the baby off the babysitter & off my way to work. Could you guess what I did in the car? I was crying like a little baby. I missed him so much. I wanted to hug & kiss him so so much. That moment, I knew what I wanted to be, I wanted to be a SAHM, so i can spend all my time with my precious little one.

And voila, I became a SAHM few months later. Phew! Life wasn't easy in the beginning, it took me a while to get adjusted into the life of a SAHM, who's on duty 24/7, who has no pay/bonus, no annual leaves/ MC, didn't even have time for a proper meals, who's constantly look like a maid & so many others underprivileged stuffs that I can go on talking for hours, especially since I have a high need baby that was literally glued to me, like, all the time.

So, what do I get in return? I have a happy baby. I get to see him falls, see him crawl, witnessed all the 1st all by myself, I could stay by his side, to watch him grow, to witness his every milestones, to laugh & cry together, to do so much more things together. Really, nothing else matters, whatever that makes him happy, makes me happy, it's that simple.

Often needed to be hugged to sleep, no, I wasn't spoiling him, I was telling him that mummy will always be here for him.

All those sleepless nights just for the baby

Sometimes I just like to watch him in his sleep, & smell that nice scents that only a baby has.

So high need I decided that babywear him would be easier for me to do some simple chores.

Nerdy mummy & son

My source of happiness. Mummy loves you.


2 comments:

Agnes Sim on 3/14/2014 12:45 pm said...

So good, can be SAHM... ;-)

Verance Low on 3/14/2014 5:54 pm said...

Yes Agnes, indeed a bless. :)

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